I came home from champs’ weekend today with 26 photos (If I
had a photo credential, I would have about 6000 photos). Sunday morning, I took a break from being a derby
fan and took the light rail to downtown Portland. I walked around in a mostly vain attempt to
find a stray shopping cart to photo.
I walked to Powell’s mostly as a tourist of nostalgia. The room where the physics books used to live
is an all kid’s room now. The place
where the Dungeons and Dragons books used to live is now a fantasy gaming
novelization place. Which is kind of the
same thing…. I guess.
I left and walked down a few blocks to find the Powell’s
Technical Books store where Fup used to live.
That store doesn’t exist anymore.
I walked through the park blocks and the pearl
district. A tall gentleman asked me for
65 cents. I gave him a buck. He told me I must be a man of means, because
of my red jacket and my cobalt blue shoes. There was one block, where I looked
across the street to see someone with a cute little black camera poised a
little higher than his waist. Now, I don’t
have a very strong tribal affiliation with the street togs. But I recognize a
tribe member when I see one. I flash a
half-Mona Lisa smile at him and then look to where he’s looking. I don’t see it. Not only do I not see any stray shopping
carts that I’m looking for, I don’t see what he’s seeing or what he’s searching
for. Puzzled I look at him again. He’s wearing black shoes, a black jacket and
dark wraparound sunglasses. Sunglasses
on a Sunday November morning in Portland!
Clearly I’m doing it wrong with my red jacket and cobalt blue
shoes!
I eventually make it down to the to the river walk. As I’m
crossing the street, I find a man walking a shopping cart across the crosswalk. On the other side, he picks up a slim red five
by seven inch notebook off the ground. I
imagine it’s the kind of notebook a very hip Ernest Hemmingway would have taken
notes in…. about the bullfights… about the fishing trips in the Caribbean… or about
Franco. As I walk past him, because I’m not quite bold enough to take his
photo, he exclaims, “I wonder if someone left a 100 dollar bill in here.” I push on, and about thirty feet later I hear
him cursing. He has not found a 100 dollar bill. He has only found fucking Earnest
Hemingway’s fucking notes about fucking Franco.
That’s the thing. We don’t always find what we’re searching
for.
We find what we find.
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